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..:: 星期日, 二月 11, 2007 ::..

Was thinking all the time..deciding..whether or not..to say goodbye..She is perfect except that she doesn't give a shit about me...I was thinking are we guys are really being too nice?or is it because some small groups of faggets made this happen..Talk to Vanness yesterday while we were out to get pizza...His ex-gf was juz like mine..Let me just state his situation and let's judge is it that he is being a bad bf or is it the gal being a fagget..
His gf was from DaLian..a chinese too..she's a model..she is pretty,talk,etc..the outlook juz gave ppl a "she is perfect" feeling..budden..She was hurt in the pass by some other guy..so she wasnt believe in love when she got stead with Vanness..That was the first thing..She lied to Vanness..Second...She loves BLOOD..which was extremely unusual..Vanness was afraid of blood..however..he tried to get along with blood..She loves to cut herself with knife..so Vanness told her that if she is feeling like seeing blood..she could cut his hand..He gave her his hand..straightaway...Third..Vanness wasn't called Vanness in the pass..his name was Zam..a cool name..however..while he was together with the gal..he was so inlove that he changed his own name to something which is very similar to his gf's name..her name is Veness..so Zam started telling ppl that he had changed name..into VANNESS...He call her all the time..fetch her after school..bring her for shopping..give her his shirt when it is raining...FUCK man..why is he doing this??just cuz he love her..but..what did the gal do??!!! she did nth..didnt even make the effort to send him a sms first..Instead..she started to ignore him..she didnt reply his msg..didnt answer his call..avoid him when she see him after school...and nt telling him anything..Finally..one fine day..his friend told him sth.." she say she doesnt love you anymore"...He was hurt..he drunk..he ran away from home..he didnt noe..what had him done wrong..and the fact is that..SHE DONT BELIEVE IN LOVE...
My situation was similar..she was back in china..she is gonna have her exam..i visit her 2times a week in sch cuz she is nt allowed to go home..I bring her shirt when the weather is cold..I accompanied her to walk around the sch after sch just to let her nerves relax..i did all the things that i could do..budden..When i leave china..step up to the flight to Australia for my studies..she finished her exam..she was having fun back there..but she juz didnt give me a shit sms..a call..not even a msg on the MSN...so why is it me spending all my time treating her nicely..giving her all my love i could??? END up? i was cheat..she was juz playing..she dont even like me....GALs..guys do get hurt too..so dun always emphasize on how we guys had hurt you..look at urself first be4 u say sth..are u really a gd gf?? or u are juz a fagget tat takes love as kidding? FUCK that man..Vanness told me to give ourself another chance..the last chance..if it ends up again we getting hurt..then we too..wanna start on playing ppl's feeling..cuz we dun see why we cant do that when others do these on us..We are trying to be the best bf and we end up get hurt,they treat us like toy..so fine then..we should join in too...DAMN IT....

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