The 5|1m5hady is here

the last poem

2008-01-06T20:14:00.000+08:00

雁兒心碎誰人慰
蟲子關心本無罪
相處漸久竟生情
依稀不舍蟲需飛

Back with my own blog

2007-12-04T17:44:00.000+08:00

Can't remember when is the last time i post sth here..paiseh.. but i really don't have mood to do so... one year have already passed, i am nt really very happy in aussie.. bitter memories are much more than happy memmories... i think coming to aussie, is being the biggest mistake i have ever made in my life... however, since i am here already..life have to go on, i mean, i will try my best, atleast wont let it ruin my life.. Here are some pics for u guys..

galS??????!!!!

2007-02-11T10:19:00.000+08:00

Was thinking all the time..deciding..whether or not..to say goodbye..She is perfect except that she doesn't give a shit about me...I was thinking are we guys are really being too nice?or is it because some small groups of faggets made this happen..Talk to Vanness yesterday while we were out to get pizza...His ex-gf was juz like mine..Let me just state his situation and let's judge is it that he is being a bad bf or is it the gal being a fagget..
His gf was from DaLian..a chinese too..she's a model..she is pretty,talk,etc..the outlook juz gave ppl a "she is perfect" feeling..budden..She was hurt in the pass by some other guy..so she wasnt believe in love when she got stead with Vanness..That was the first thing..She lied to Vanness..Second...She loves BLOOD..which was extremely unusual..Vanness was afraid of blood..however..he tried to get along with blood..She loves to cut herself with knife..so Vanness told her that if she is feeling like seeing blood..she could cut his hand..He gave her his hand..straightaway...Third..Vanness wasn't called Vanness in the pass..his name was Zam..a cool name..however..while he was together with the gal..he was so inlove that he changed his own name to something which is very similar to his gf's name..her name is Veness..so Zam started telling ppl that he had changed name..into VANNESS...He call her all the time..fetch her after school..bring her for shopping..give her his shirt when it is raining...FUCK man..why is he doing this??just cuz he love her..but..what did the gal do??!!! she did nth..didnt even make the effort to send him a sms first..Instead..she started to ignore him..she didnt reply his msg..didnt answer his call..avoid him when she see him after school...and nt telling him anything..Finally..one fine day..his friend told him sth.." she say she doesnt love you anymore"...He was hurt..he drunk..he ran away from home..he didnt noe..what had him done wrong..and the fact is that..SHE DONT BELIEVE IN LOVE...
My situation was similar..she was back in china..she is gonna have her exam..i visit her 2times a week in sch cuz she is nt allowed to go home..I bring her shirt when the weather is cold..I accompanied her to walk around the sch after sch just to let her nerves relax..i did all the things that i could do..budden..When i leave china..step up to the flight to Australia for my studies..she finished her exam..she was having fun back there..but she juz didnt give me a shit sms..a call..not even a msg on the MSN...so why is it me spending all my time treating her nicely..giving her all my love i could??? END up? i was cheat..she was juz playing..she dont even like me....GALs..guys do get hurt too..so dun always emphasize on how we guys had hurt you..look at urself first be4 u say sth..are u really a gd gf?? or u are juz a fagget tat takes love as kidding? FUCK that man..Vanness told me to give ourself another chance..the last chance..if it ends up again we getting hurt..then we too..wanna start on playing ppl's feeling..cuz we dun see why we cant do that when others do these on us..We are trying to be the best bf and we end up get hurt,they treat us like toy..so fine then..we should join in too...DAMN IT....

2007-02-07T20:09:00.000+08:00

New life in Australia...Though..But I love it..because I am enjoying the freedom though I have to handle every single thing on my own..this is my room..behind me is my bed..took it with web-cam..so is kindaf blur..forgive me..hahaha..hows life over at sg my frenz??!!! I really miss you all!! Ms LIM ..BOSS...I miss you..I miss your punishment..now then I realize how important it is!!hahahahaha...

step up..be brave...

2007-02-07T20:07:00.000+08:00

30 Jan 2007
Why is it a sunny day today?!How I hope it could be a rainy day or some other day.Today...I step onto the road to Australia on my own.which means I will be all along there,cook my own food,wash my own clothes,and take care everything on my own.I have to learn to be more mature now.I had always been very childish..that is my character,I always don't know how to worry about things..But now,I cant..I have to learn to be worry..not only worry about my results..but also my daily life,worry about how to take good care of myself and not let my parents worry.My mum she is a very traditional house wife,she does everything like other house wife,and sometime..she even do more than what she is suppose to do.She cares about me,she is always worrying about me..sometimes just because of she is over worry about me,we broke into quarrels..Just like yesterday,the phone bill came,and she scolded me for sending too much sms.(and her too much is just 400).They cant understand us,what they demanded is that we are suppose to call if we have anything to tell our friends..not by sending sms.I understand,all the parents want their childrens to be good,i also understnad that money are hard to earn.I really appreciate that they allow to send me out to study,I also understand my family is not a very rich family,which means it is my parents have to work very hard and save very hard to give me the money to study.My parents always say that I didnt know how to think.But I am sure I know,because I always know how to plan before hand.Stayed in Sg for 4years,there are only few things I learnt,it is really a waste.First,I improved my english;Secondaly,I make much friends in Sg;Lastly,I learn how to be a leader well..I hope this time I go to Australia on my own,I will learn more about indepandent and most importantly,I need to be more mature.I wanna say goodbye to all those bad memories and say hi to my new life.I know I will be successful,no matter what,I will study hard,I want to show my parents and relatives that I can do it,not let them look down on me and say that I am wasting money and not studying well.Last paragraph I wanna leave it to my Sg friends..I am really very happy to know you all,it is all my pleasure..Though I am older than you all,I had neva treat you all like my sibling,I treat you all like my friends,who are same age as me..And allow me to say again,I really miss you all.To those who are taking O level this year,I wanna wish you all all the best,strike your best,i believe that all of you can do it!Choose your right school and there are a bright future ahead waiting for you all...If i get the chance to go to Sg,I will of course let you all know and we shall all go out and meet up!All the best to myself,I know I can do it!

郁闷中~~~

2007-01-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

生活枯燥无味中..每天除了去上个班..帮人家修修电脑..可以做的事,恐怕就只剩下学习

了..

老爸让我模仿澳洲的生活方式..你说有可能吗?靠~~人家现在是来度假好不好!就算不

让我玩..

也要让我放松啊!哎~~~~~~~~~~~及其无聊之中,突然想起了她..所以写了下面这些东

西..也不知道算什么文体..就写吧..发泄发泄对她的思念罢了..中英文版都写咯!..呵呵

Without you, life is plain;
Without you, life is meaningless.

Without you, nobody cares when I am hurt;
Without you, I am just like fish out of water;
Without you, I am like flower without the sun.

Without you... ...

Without you, I feel so empty inside me, so miserable;
Without you, I might lose the strenght to keep on living.

Can I say, I can't live without you?

I really love you, I hope you know this..
And another thing... ...

That I am gonna love you forever...With my entire life...
I LOVE YOU...

没有你, 生活好单调;
没有你, 生命没意义.

没有你, 受伤没人疼;
没有你, 我就像鱼儿离开了水;
没有你, 我就像花儿没有了阳光.

没有你... ...

没有你的时候我还空虚, 好难受;
没有你我怕会失去活下去的力量.

我不能没有你!
我希望你知道, 我真的很爱你... ...
而且, 我要爱你一辈子!

我爱你!

yeepee!!!

2006-12-15T17:39:00.000+08:00

YEEPEEEE!!!!I can see my own blog with china network now[last time dunnoe y cannot!!=( ] Because of that,I finally have the mood to blog again..hehe..Hmmm..felt better now..cuz australia embassy sent me the health check list few days ago..whichmeans I am not very far from getting the visa le..hahaha..atleast, I now dun need to worry all day long whether I will get the visa or not le..hehehe..
Mevalia,sorry ah..I left SG early..so cant get u a present or celebrate birthday for u..broke my promise le..haiZz..next year bah..sorry wor..anyway..u also go back Indonesia liao mah..hahaha..onli send u a msg on ur birthday..but didnt noe u went back to Indonesia..so dunnoe whether u can see it or not..hahaha..
FrenZ in SG, I really miss u all a lot..miss those days tat are with u!!!! 5years in SG,I met lots of ppl,good frenz I have tons,haha..a bit exaggerating lar..but,yeah,they are really nice to me!!!Like tat Stephanie Teo **,she always like to pinch me,bully me..but she is actually damn nice to me..Stephy, I REALLY appreciate the present u gave me on the day I leave..Roger,JinMing,SaSa,Yehfri,JianTao,KayYong,Travis,WanJun,AhWen,PengPeng,XueFei ETC. I really wanna thank you all for coming to the air-port to send me off..I am so touched!!!!hahaha..Anyway..I will do wat u all say--study hard,fight for my good future and when I have holiday,I will really want to go back to SG and visit u all..but i scare u all forget me leh!!hahahhaha...oh ya Travis..i NEVA dare to delete the msg u sent me!!haha..frenz 4eva!!!
Ok lar..stop here for todae..still need to go help my mama cook dinner!!!oopss...mummy is calling...gtg...BYE~~!

Weeee..working as a T.A!!!

2006-11-09T11:20:00.000+08:00

haha..back in china le..for the first week..haiZzz..result so sux..erm..class position 21..level 34..ok lar..but my parents aint very happpy abt them..me too..anyway..lets drop those sad sad thing bah..I am working le..in a computer shop..haha...as a T.A(technical assistance)hahaha..isnt it wonderful?!haha..i am learning on the way also..cuz hor..my skill still not very good lar..haha..went out to ppl's house to repair com for them with my senior..haha...so happy these days...k lar..stop here for the day..no time for craps..haha..Stephanie..now u happy liao lah?i update liao hor!!! =PpPp

Change of e-mail add

2006-10-23T15:44:00.000+08:00

Hey guys..No time for other nonsensical stuff...My Dota and MapleStory still waitting for me...haha..Juz drop in to tell you guys that I changed my e-mail address..For more details..Plz check ur e-mail for my new e-mail address..Thank You and have a nice day ahead..^_^

Birthday Celebration

2006-10-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

Haha..yoz..Finally got the mood and time to blog again after all the exams..Yeah..Todae shaun b'day..We went out together to celebrate for him..Haha..It is such a meaningful and special celebration..Cuz..the way we celebrate..I thnk we are the first group of ppl doing tat..LOL..
I went to meet Merlvin at his house around 12..then played with Mattew..haha..he so cute lar..when I carry him I like carrying a candy floss lyk tat..haha..After tat..around 2 bah..I and merlvin reached PS and had our lunch..Then KayYong joint in..haha..he very funny..thought we haven reach PS..he waited for us at the bus stop for 20mins like tat be4 he realize tat he can call merlvin and ask where are we..LOL..by then we already finish eating..haha..then we went to the arcade and "wait" for the others to come..played the super mario racing..LOL..fun man..keep throwing turtle shells at each other..haha..One by one they came..Travis..then the SHAUN!haha..then roger and jinmin..of cuz..the driver(kee hong),free loader(DaCheng) and payer(William)come the latest..haha..after waiting for these fags eat for almost an hour..We finally start our programmes...LOL..We had a quite pathetic time searching for lan shop..cuz..todae is weekday..normal lan shop will onli let ppl who are below 16 in after 6..SHAG..I am the onli lao jiao there..haha..bo bian..so..went to play pool..haha..sianZz..todae my aiming sux..miss cue so many times..haiZz..old liao lor..cannot see properly le..haha..Then the most interesting part come about..We went to lan shop finally..cuz is after 6 le..LOL..they played DOTA match with another group of guys..5v5..they were losing in the earlier part of the game..then suddenly the situation turned..juz cuz the "bear"became angry..haha..for ur information..the bear the Warlord..the hero used by KeeHong..haha..Btw..he had a new nick..called dicky..LOL..the game finally end after 2hrs..lol..very long..the crazy shaun teh had 40++ kill..6death..haha..GODLIKE..haha..shaun u rox man..and happy brithday to u..btw..u still owe me 15 times of whacking..haha.. END HERE FOR TODAY... LATE LE...
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^_^

2006-09-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

Fei Ying..Fei Mian..Fei Chong...When did I become fei also liao..LOL..wondering will "FEI"become a bad word in future..haha..lame(-.-)..Anyway..Fei Ying is my cousin friend..full name is Jie ying..clean de jie..smart de ying..haha..she not fei at all..but kindaf shou..haha..Among all my cousin friends,she is the only one that neva disturb me since she saw me...hahaha..not bad girl lar..pretty(eventhough she always say herself ugly),cute(cuz her face chubby chubby de),brilliant(crescent girl de neh),and sporty(play hocky de ok!!)...hahaha..guys..should congrates me for found a zhi yin again..lol...Anyway..todae stayed at home..boring..nth to do..exam coming..must study but no mood study..so stare at the book blankly and fa dai..nth went in my brain..dunnoe wat's happening to me..cant concentrate..HaiZzz..Suan le..dun wanna talk abt sad thing liao..now suppose be time for songs and chats...so..see ya guys around..^_^

Weeeee!!!!!

2006-09-17T20:23:00.000+08:00

Yoz..long time no blog liao..good to see you all..haha..here comes the new entry...T_T->lame.. LoL...Finally changed my hair style...Weeeee..so happy lor...hahaha...Eventhough it looks a bit wierd right after the cut...but I believe it confirm will be nicer after it grows longer a bit...HAhaa..guys you all can give comments on my new hairstyle..give me some feedback..I welcome both positive and negative feedbacks..hahaha...Btw..I need to send a biig thank you to MR.Travis Ang Chee Seng here..haha..cuz he is the one gave me suggestion for this hair style..Travis..be a hairstylist next time leh..haha..then I will go find you cut hair....LOL...ok..I think tats enough for todae...haha...

Shopping...

2006-08-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..todae..a happy day..LOL..went out with Hiromi,Akiko,Yan Ting&my bro..we took neo-print,we did shopping..we had a lot of fun..
Hiromi is kawayi..haha..Akiko,I mean no offence..haha..erm..anyway..they are students who came to my school for exchange programmes..
We window shopped all the while...and finally..they bought something..Hiromi bought a bag!!!She said tat if she is to buy tat bag in Japan,she will have to spend much more!!Anyway..we got alone quite well..LOL...

SickO

2006-08-21T21:39:00.000+08:00

yea..tats me..with a very swollen eye like kana punch..SianZzz...dunnoe why..I didnt go bio gal's upskirt..I also sompak I didn't go peep at ppl when they bath..Then dunnoe why tat damn thing came out..Hai me missed my CA test..Now I have to take re-test..and is like 3test on 1 day?WTH lor...I took my medicine..I applied what the doctor asked me to apply..but my eye seems to become bad to worst...Taking MC again..gonna miss another CA again...Hell lah!!!!!

Life..so..SIan??

2006-08-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

It shows 23.00 on the clock...
I am tired..
but not feel like sleeping..
LOL...
SianZ..siAnZz...saNzZ...
I wonder how many times will me frens hear me saying tat..
yea..
seriously..
these few weeks I am so sian..
dunnoe why..
dun feel like playing maple..
dun feel like playing Dota..
dun feel like playing Stoneage..
dun feel like playing CS..
dun feel like doing hw..
dun feel like doing anythin..
now even worst..
dun feel like sleeping..
hahaha..
yea..
I wonder wat I will dun feel like next..
dun feel like dun feel like dun feel like..
my life is corrupted..
haha..
but not tat bad yet..
yea..
atleast..
I went for swimming lesson..
I went outting with frens..
and..
I went to school!!!!
Lame... --.--""
ARGHHH..
Now..
I dun feel like writing anymore...
haha..
so end here..
anyway..
I dun even noe wat I writing..
Juz vending my sianZness on the blog?
Maybe bah..

wAt 5hould I do?!

2006-08-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

Another piss off day...
wat is life up to man???!!!
Why izzit tat my sis becomes lyk this???!!!
Didn't my family teach her how to behave?
We DID!!!
Didn't she noe the consequences of misbehaving???!!!
She knEw!!!
So why are these things happening again and again??!!
I am disappointed and upset,I don't noe wat to do...
What should I do to get her a right attitude?
By always scolding her and beating her?I don't think so...We can't teach a child this way..
I dun recommand physical teaching the children as I dun like it eventhough we need it to teach the children the rite thing to do sometimes...
But wat should I do when tat doesn't go into use?!
Wat should I do??Anybody plz tell me...My heart is bleeding...

tat's me...

2006-08-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

Bus

2006-07-30T18:01:00.000+08:00

Waiting, waiting, waiting,
Is the bus still coming?

Boring, boring, boring,
Handsome beside me, what are you listening?

Pushing, pushing, pushing,
Why is everyone squeezing?

Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping,
After work and study, it is always so tiring.

Stopping, stopping, stopping,
One by one alighting.

Driving, driving, driving,
Thanks to the driver who is sacrificing!

Pissed off...

2006-07-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

yeah...damn pissed off todae..specially during canteen duty..the class doing canteen duty todae is the worst class i had ever get..they juz refuse to do wateva they are suppose to do..talk to them nicely..but..still refuse to do it..at the end..i shouted damn loud at them,i mean..wat can i do other than tat?i am afraid if i will to hold my temper anymore..i will go mad..i mean..who the hell cares if i shouted and them and i got into trouble?the world is always unfair..they are rude to us,we can't shout at them?we must be polite all the time?must the fake smile always hanging on our face?STRESSED..student councillors will get merit points..however..there isn't a double for it cuz we are councillor..but always remember..there is always a double for DEMERIT POINT...STRESSED again...i agree that we have to behave ourself..but setting all these rules is juz being unfair,eventhough i noe the world will neva be a fair one...really PISSED OFF..

Childhood

2006-02-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

Recall, Encore, Reinstall,
Updating my brain for more;

Memories of childhood which I lost,
Has now renewed just like before;

Playing with toy robots when I was four,
Like to colour when I am so small;

'KorKor' 'KorKor' I called,
I want to play that ball ball;

'Phu...Phew' 'Phu...Phew', my brother snore,
Oh, he is sleeping after all!

Days,Months,Years later I grew so tall,
I am not a kid anymore;

Quarreling with my brother is just normal,
Both of us have hot temper;

I missed my childhood all the time,
As it is MARVELLOUS and so FUN!

Love

2005-08-05T17:07:00.000+08:00

Be a filial one that all may know
Love your seniors though they are old
When they ask for herlp just do so
They gave you your flesh and soul

Provide them warmth when they are cold
Give them your concern when their spirit are low
Try your very best this I am told
Loving relationships are worth a million in gold

Treasure your love ones this is the way
And happiness will be here to stay
Give them all your love do it everyday
And you will be loved in all ways

If I am incharge of the world

2005-05-14T09:51:00.000+08:00

If I am incharge of thw world
I will make Singapore popular

By supporting children in South Africa
Who is so hungered and filled with helplessness

Getting people out of bitter life
That is what I will try

Setting NKF as example
Save people as principle

Bring up the name of Singapore
If I am incharge of the world

Exam

2005-05-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

The clock is running
The time is flying

We sit in the classroom
Having long essay writing

Pen is moving
Brain is thinking

Result of this mid-year
Concerning the streaming

We need to get a good result
We dont want to show a paper that lousy

It seems all so easy
But in reality its all on the contrary

They force us to study
It makes my head all dizzy

Then I feel all weezy and sneezy
And so forgive me.

I feel so sickly
Trying to make them happy

As if I am a machine for study
Working hard to make them happy

What can we do?
What should we do?

Follow what they wanted?
I think not.

Follow what we want?
Lets just say its gonna be dot dot dot

Sadness

2005-05-04T21:16:00.000+08:00

He is greatly contributed
To Singapore

We are all sad
That he has passed on

We would like
To show our sympathy

To the family of our great president
Dr Wee

We thank him
For all he did

We hoped you
Won't be so sad

He was just tired
And has gone for a long rest

The Boy

2005-05-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

He thought he was cool
In reality, he is just a fool

All he thought was the time after school
So, he could get high and be cool

Thinking it was no big deal
as he crouched by the roadside taking a small pink pill.

When his lungs become black
He couldn't turn it back

And when his mind was gone
Then he would know something is wrong.

But it will be too late
God gave him chance, which he didn't take.

So what he can do?
Be CLEAN of drugs

That's being real COOL